Vulnerable 

September came with a spiral of emotions—health, car problems, ministry transitions, and unprocessed grief. Circumstances beyond my control overwhelmed my heart and mind. I became vulnerable, which meant being honest, real, and transparent. I stopped wrestling in silence with God; I lamented and poured out my all to Him. All I could think about was how much I struggled and how much I needed to be free.

I sensed His strong invitation to open my heart and ran to His arms. I remained uncertain and clung to the idea of doing things my own way. I shut down and attempted to control everything on my own, until I became exhausted and fully surrendered to Him. When I brought up the internal struggles, emotional turmoil, my question, and my trauma, I felt His nearness, His divine love, and His grace toward me. I felt His loving tenderness and His divine provisions in my life. Those moments humbled me, made me stronger, braver, and more tenderhearted.

David says, “But  I have trusted in your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, because he has dealt bountifully with me.” Psalm 13:5-6